grah

So..

its like gone 4AM.. and I'm wide awake with what feels like a stampede trying to escape from my ear..

seems i've picked up ANOTHER sinus infection.. if only that doctor had actually listened to me, and my medical records on the operation I had a couple of years ago instead of going "OMFG BMI AM OVA 25!!!!!! NO OPERATE!!!"



angry? yeah.. a little.. thing is, its about quality of life.. I get a sinus infection and thanks to the massive cyst under my left eye and my wonky septum my whole head becomes a shifting hot-spot of pressure build up.. behind my eyes, over in one or both of my ears.. did you know i couldnt hear properly for the first 5 months of this year? seriously.. everything i heard from my right ear sounded as if i'd put several pillows over it.. muffled, distant and indistinct.. from time to time my left ear would go like it too, which was HILARIOUSLY FUNNY..

So I'm stuck, as a musician who cant hear properly (dont quote me about bethoven.. he worked via vibrations from the piano... cant do that with an electric quite so easily..) and as someone who cant hear when he's being spoken to.. with all the pain and problems associated with it as well..

I get the reasons why they wont.. the dangers etc and blah blah blah.. but surely thats my choice to make?

whole fucking society has gone mental with rules...